freedom

sometimes I feel like a farm animal,caged up by fences. unknowing of the true world thus living in my imagination. I'm blindly used but I do not know of anything else.I become curious drop my boundaries I let them break that's when God truly came into my world the only world that I know but when good comes bad tails it. my world began to become utter chaos so I bring about new fences,... stronger ones. but my world is now tarnished with bad and good is slowly escaping, seeping through. but it seems that I can't break my own fences. I'm stuck in a world of terror sucky thing is it's only me and it seems there is no way to get out. I feel like a farm animal unknowing and blind of the world behind this wall, a world of freedom. I feel like a bird without wings moreover one that's caged. will I ever have freedom ?

song of the week freedom by run kid run.

yeah random

so I decided to do something like rebekah lol I know ima souper poser but here I go
my favorite color is silver and purple ( strangely I recently found out my dads fav color is silver and my moms is purple lol ohh how genes work out soo weirdly waii is that genes or what ?)
when I'm older I wanna have two cats and a dog and maybe a liger idk fatal attractions much ?
I was born in las vegas heck to the yeah T^T too bad I don't remember the awesome house we supposively had
my favorite animal is the arctic fox actually any fox
my dream is to learn all the major Asian languages / dialects
I want twins ... is that weird ?
sometimes I'm very morbid ohkay maybe more than sometimes
I like poetry
I hate people who are fake
I hate girls that pretend to be your friend
I love white chocolate
my first love is GOD
I love my sister
I can sleep in the weirdest positions
I like rlly weird shows
I love like kids
sometimes I feel like jello
I like Tim Burton stuff
I'm into creepy
I like popcorn in soup
I like steak ... rare
frozen yogurt <3 taro bubble tea I like green bananas I eat an apple everyday but it still doesn't keep the doctor away I admit I'm a sucker for guys that can sing I can never keep a journal for more than two months Im a grade A procrastinator I like to sing I want to learn the cello I think face to face is he best way to communicate I like cutting ... construction paper I like icy days I love fall quiet ppl annoy me I'm a shopaholic if I have money I treasure friends I run my troubles away I clean when I'm angry or need to think I wish I didn't have asthma I reall liked totally spies when I was little or still I'm never to old enough for kids shows hate carrots live carrot juice hate chocolate ice cream and use to hate strawberry ice cream strawberry milkshakes :) I like hard beds I use to shower everyday till imappa I hate haters I love awesome people when I was little I had a stuffed polar bear named snuggles why did u have to become extinct I get pissed when people don't respond I love good books I wanna have a side job as a voice actor I dont like history except for the bibley I like the name adanaisha Im training my self o be able to write with both hands I go to the bathroom in the dark and that scares the living daylights outta rebekah rebekah scream makes me scream I like frozen grapes I love science but it's my worst subject I only know two people that like the same music I do I think me and daniel are twins in another dimension I wish we lived in a world with magic I wish I had a unicorn I always wanted to be a mermaid when us silen I hear my parent fighting that why I like to listen to music I was a vey lonely child still waiting for the person I can open up to I love bass I plan to master it my favorite girl singer is lights a song that makes me happy is dancing in he moonlight I lov rollercoasters sushi -3- prefer internal rather than external I like morons bothers me when guy touch me other than the person I like I'm us pain I love shoes gloomy bear >w<
vanilla pudding
chobani
don't like ppl scared of bugs
love nine tails
love music
hate pimples
hate rude people
love fiction
hate having to get out of bed in the morning
I wish I could redo the past
one of my favorite lines in a song " all I hav is all of me and its all that I can give"
favorite song now - listen to your heart the Maine
it really late
I'm a morning showerer
I use to be a germaphobe
i think clear pianos are cool
I want a robot
I love daisies
im thankful for all I have
I love my family
I love doritos
jello bothers me
I'm always sick
I like the flavor cherry and grape
hat flavor orange like oranges
I have the weirdest imagination
guys that can cook are cool
cold blankets
I hav a weird obsession with writing utensils
I have weird laughing spasms
Spanish bores me
I'll continue this another time
idk

caught up in the storm

Life is unexpected (; , just like the weather recently : wonderful and sunny one day, then the next thing i know I'm getting slapped silly with the wind and rain. D; yeah i haven't blogged in forevers, I'm probably at fault for the rain cause God's frowning down upon me. ( yeah, yeah since he's omniscient and all :T) Right now there's a hurricane in my life, i just can seem to settle down. I've been avoiding people lately because i don't want them to get caught up in the storm im in, but the funny thing is they just go with it. no "what's up", no " hey i miss you" nothing. Caring (about ppls) too much is my greatest weakness. Ever since i was little i dealt with my own problems, but i guess im caving  in. im really stressed out, and have a bunch of things on my to do list. BUT, that shouldn't stop me from being with the one i love. ( YEAH JESUS!) i want to be stronger, no i must be stronger. all this is just the dark before the morning ;D


so to you all:
"what's up, would you try getting into the eye of this storm?"


Life is unexpected, but don't let that get to you, because God is always there like a rushing wind and that should never be a surprise :]

ill be praying for you all ~ lots of love :] gloria ( teehee i wonder if you guys noticed what i did the text >    < try figuring it out )

<3 before the morning - josh wilson ( song of the day)

without hearts of prayer what are we?

 What we are is God's gift to us. What we become is our gift to God.

    

~Eleanor Powell

unknown to be known

    Sometimes it feels like my world is complete bologna. it pains me to see that people don't understand me and they don't even try to. i may seem like an abstruse person but it wont kill you to try, will it? it hurts that people stomp on, and take advantage of my sincerity when they don't know that i'm holding back tears, that i'm closing this neverending, gushing, acute wound over and over again. i'm beginning to have a pallid heart, if nothing all... all covered in lacerations. i give and give but making the receiver more greedy, i'm left empty. it's my fault. my life sort of how do i put this:sucks. and i do want to cry. i'd love to scream but in return i would be silenced. they all construe that everything is yipedi-doodaa fine, that my face says all the things that you need to know. but this is an apocryphal statement. i do so much but maybe i'm the one being selfish, maybe im the one hurting myself, hurting the people around me. i really dont know.the rest is ineffable. and thats why

God aids the lost.
he is my saviour, i will not be in want.

The Truth

Psalm 27:8

"My heart says of you, "Seek his face!" Your face, LORD, I will seek."

Deuteronomy 4:29

     "But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul."


                    SEEK THE LORD FOR HE IS THE TRUTH.